The most valuable lesson man has learned from his dog is to kick a few blades of grass over it and move on. ~Robert Brault
Old LFBA has not died despite the fact that the blogging entries are few and far between these days. The Titan Chronos continues to weave his inevitable tapestries as time moves forward whether I participate willingly or not. This last holiday season was now the 3rd endured with my family broken. There is more daily normalcy as this progresses. There remain moments of remorse especially when my son remarks that he does not know what momma was thinking….but we get through. The big pile of emotional and financial manure left by X is slowly composting and every day I kick a little more grass on it. Maybe one day, it will be the best flower bed in the neighborhood!! Continue reading
A truly rich man is one whose children run into his arms when his hands are
empty. ~Author Unknown
As a younger man, I never could have imagined being a Dad. Fatherhood has found me, and for that I am grateful. Continue reading
The hunger for love is much more difficult to remove than the hunger for bread. ~Mother Teresa Continue reading
My son Z chose to play baseball this fall instead of soccer. Of course, I love this. I can coach Baseball….I know virtually nothing about how to play soccer. If I have to learn this, eventually I will…but right now, I’m digging on baseball with my son. This is our time and nobody can take it away.
If a woman has to choose between catching a fly ball and saving an infant’s
life, she will choose to save the infant’s life without even considering if
there are men on base. ~Dave Barry Continue reading
How reluctantly the mind consents to reality! ~Norman Douglas
Wow…so simple, yet so true. We live inside our wants and desires. We hold fast to our memories and fantasies. We cling to the safety of what was. Continue reading
Wisdom doesn’t necessarily come with age. Sometimes age just shows up all by
itself. ~Tom Wilson
I have often said that age is much too high a price to pay for wisdom. The above is true though. Age is inevitable. Wisdom must be sought or learned from (often bad) experience. Now, the Buddhist in me, or the Taoist in me, or the Scientist in me will argue that no experiences are inherently bad…we just choose to interpret them that way. But the betrayed husband in me and the father in me can find an easy judgment leaning away from neutrality about the experiences happening these past 2+ years. Continue reading
You can fall in love at first sight with a place as with a person. ~Alec Waugh
I’m back up on the island in the pacific northwest at the house I bought for us. the second we saw this place, we fell in love with it. I love it still but hate the memories it conjures. Truthfully, I love the memories but hate that they no longer coincide with the truth as I know it now. This is my 5th incursion back since my marriage fell apart again. I wish I could say that it’s easier to be here now, but it is not. I’m here with my son….trying to make new memories that he and I can take with us. It is what it is, but feels incomplete. Continue reading
I have been away from the blogosphere for quite some time now. I have loosely kept up with other posts and even in my absentia been nominated for a couple of those bloggy awards. I appreciate the nominations and I hope that means that someone is getting something useful from this. I have not yet responded to any of the award nominations….and I probably won’t, but I appreciate the sentiment.
It may be time to get back in the saddle, as it has been over two weeks since my last original post. Mind you…I never promised I would write regularly (lucky for you!!)
A silly idea is current that good people do not know what temptation means. This is an obvious lie. Only those who try to resist temptation know how strong it is…. A man who gives in to temptation after five minutes simply does not know what it would have been like an hour later. That is why bad people, in one sense, know very little about badness. They have lived a sheltered life by always giving in. ~C.S. Lewis Continue reading
This is a nice reminder that assumptions can be wrong, hurtful and ultimately humiliating.
A local United Way office realized that the organization had never received a donation from the town’s most successful lawyer. John, The person in charge of contributions called him to persuade him to contribute.
Time is the longest distance between two places. ~Tennessee Williams
365…days. Today being the last of them, when this rambling collection of confused and angry detritus first found its way to the blogosphere. Yep. A year has passed. An interminable distance between then and now. The longest span of a year I have ever known. Continue reading
On the green they watched their sons Playing till too dark to see, As their fathers watched them once, As my father once watched me ~Edmund Blunden
When we found out X was pregnant over 9 years ago now, I knew we were having a son. Whether that was wishful or wistful thinking I don’t know, but it just felt right to think that. Continue reading
One cannot and must not try to erase the past merely because it does not fit the present. ~Golda Meir
My past is varied and diverse. By some accounts I have done a lot and by others I’ve done nothing. No matter the comparison, my past was always mine. I owned it. Continue reading
There’s one sad truth in life I’ve found While journeying east and west – The only folks we really wound Are those we love the best. We flatter those we scarcely know, We please the fleeting guest, And deal full many a thoughtless blow To those who love us best. ~Ella Wheeler Wilcox
I’m on the road at the moment and have been remiss in keeping up with the haps in the sphere of blogs. I’ll get back to it soon. As I type, I’m in my house in the Pacific Northwest. The vast-land of Canada is only about 20 miles away. It’s beautiful up here. From my deck I can see other islands silhouetted in the distance. Continue reading